Nothing much is happening here, although I'm pretty sure all three kids have a cold. Brodie and Mira are coughing for sure, and I thought Hope was having her normal coughing, but now I think it might be a cold. She is coughing A LOT. It's not that exciting though, just normal kid stuff.
Alex and I managed to get away, by ourselves, for the weekend. Yep, that was definitely a good thing. We're still trying to figure out how to adjust to life without Ashley, so it was nice to get away and have a break from thinking and decision making. It's been four months now, since Ashley died, and I find grief to be a mysterious thing. I'm still trying to figure it out. All I know for sure, is that my normally organized, speedy, and multi-tasking brain has turned to mush and the best I can do is go with the flow.
I do have unexpected moments when the tears come, but please don't ask me why I'm crying. I don't feel that I should have to explain it, or that I should have to analyze it. There are so many reasons to cry and I'm just glad when they come, so I can let go a little. I should be allowed to cry at this point. Everything just feels a little unstable and since I don't know what to do about that, I'll just keep close to God and let Him guide me.
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yes grief is a mysterious thing, we too keep remembering Ashley and are amazed how much one can love a child. God taught us a new level of love thru Ashley and Hope.
Love & Prayers, Mom& Dad
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